The love I was
looking for.
Disclaimer: This is
not a love story.
I have a home, but I feel homeless.
I have a family, but I feel like I’m an orphan.
I have a boyfriend, but I feel loveless.
My life has no direction. My life seems like no purpose at
all.
I am LOST.
Two years ago, in the month of January, I found out that I
was three months pregnant, jobless, sick of taking care of my ill mother, and
my six years relationship with my boyfriend was about to end.
Nothing’s going right according to what I have planned.
It was late in the evening of February 11, 2011, I found
myself kneeling on the floor meditating about hoe Jesus Christ suffered until
he died on the cross at Calvary.He was crowned with thorns that caused his head to bleed so
much; his flesh was stripped for so many times due to the scourging at the
pillar; walked for a very long distance while carrying a very huge and heavy
cross while the people around Him who He calls “His children” were mocking Him
and spat on him; then was crucified on the cross…
Those pain and suffering I cannot bear, the situation I
can’t even think would happen. But it did, all because of me, because of you,
because of us. So that our sins might be forgiven.
Then I saw a vision. I was in a small room, looks like a
jail room with ony a very small window as the source of light. A man was
sitting on a solid throne right below the small window. The man was wearing a
very white robe, I cannot see his face because of the bright light coming from
the window. At the feet of the man I saw a little girl, about 6 years old. The
man touched the top of the head of the girl and told her “Anak, hindi ko
kailangan yung talino mo, yung talent mo, yung galing mo…Ang kailangan ko lang
yung puso mo, yung buong puso mo. I want you to come to me like a child,
innocent and humble“. (Child, I don’t need your intellect, your talents ansd
skills, all I want is your heart, your whole heart.)
I cannot stop my mouth from confessing and my tears from
falling. I was struck in awe of God. Oh that love, the love I was looking for
all my life. That kind of love that expects nothing in return. The unchanging love, the love that pursues me.
When I saw that vision, my heart was filled with joy that no
amount of flowers and chocolates can fill.
I found God’s love for me…and everything in my life was
never the same again.
I have found my home
in the arms of God.
I found the love at the cross where Christ had died.
I was lost all my life, but God found me and He’ll never let
me go.
This is not a love story; this
is the story of my conversion
This is a story of how God
showed me His love for me.
Thank You Tatay, for using Valentines Day to remind me of
Your love for me. I don’t need any flowers, chocolates, or even a special date,
because your love is sufficient to fill my heart with genuine joy that no
people or gift can give.
Happy Valentines Day everyone! God bless you!
Some says that today is Single Awareness Day (S.A.D) but
for me it is God’s Love Awareness Day (G.L.A.D). – Ate Jean Galang
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